This post was inspired by Bearpaw boots. When they sent out their March prompts, one of them being St. Patrick’s Day, this post just rolled off my fingertips. I don’t always remember it but I am lucky in so very many ways. You can be lucky too if you use my code BPAMBJF for a 20% discount on your own purchase. Though these boots were gifted, my thoughts and opinions are my own. See the end for outfit details.
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It’s funny how things happen sometimes: just the way you wanted but nothing like you expected. For as long as I can remember, I have wanted to be a mom. When other kids were dreaming of being doctors or ballerinas, I was imagining a wedding and babies. As I grew, this never changed. I graduated college with a degree in Public Relations but what I really wanted to do was raise a family. And, motherhood has come easily to me. I met my husband soon after college and we got married almost a year to the day after we met. Our first baby was easy to come by, almost a honeymoon pregnancy (she was born 10 months after). Three more littles later and I never had to try for a baby. So, yes, motherhood has come easy to me. I’ve been lucky.
I have four healthy children. I am lucky. I have a warm, (sometimes) clean home. I have a husband who adores me. I am lucky. Physically motherhood was easy. No complications, I do suffer from Hyperemesis Gravidarum but a mild case when all is said and done. I am lucky. My babies came out happy and healthy. I am lucky. Breastfeeding did not come naturally but my babies thrived on formula. I am lucky. I suffered from baby blues and later postpartum anxiety. I have a great support system who got me through. I am lucky. You see, motherhood has been the easiest thing I have ever done. I had no choice in the biology of it. I had no problems in the completion of it. I had no physical struggles to overcome in myself or my babies. I am lucky.
Becoming a mother, being a mother, is the easiest thing I’ve ever done. I’m lucky in motherhood. Being a mother every day though? That is far from easy. That’s a task of love. It’s changing diaper after diaper until you think you might be wading in pampers. It’s midnight feedings and waking at the crack of dawn. It’s spit up on your favorite shirt and shrugging when you spray another layer of dry shampoo on because you can’t remember the last time you showered. Motherhood is hard, challenging, and exhausting. And, yet, in motherhood I am lucky.
My children yell, argue, demand snacks, and cut up paper so tiny that even my vacuum can’t find all the pieces. She wants the blue cup when I already poured juice into the pink one (and no I am not just going to give you a new cup child- dishes!). He asked for crackers when he really wanted cereal and he’s definitely not eating anything green unless it’s an M&M. She doesn’t feel like stopping her games to potty train so we fear she may actually be the child who goes to college in diapers (don’t worry, she finally did decide the potty was an okay thing). Some days I feel like I may go grey before the daddy gets off work. Some days I raise my voice more than I feel like I should. Some days, I hand the babies off to my husband the minute he walks in the door and run to hide wondering if there will ever be a day that I don’t feel like I’m drowning in children.
Rest assured, I know there will be. So when I’m wallowing in my three year old’s temper tantrum induced misery, I try to remind myself: I am lucky. I am lucky that motherhood has come so easily. It could be different. And, no I’m not going to enjoy every minute of screaming or delight over diaper changes and spilt milk. I’m not going to hope my children never grow out of night wakings. Or wish they would ask me to read “That’s not my Dragon” on repeat for two hours straight. But, I am going to close my eyes, take a deep breath, and remind myself, in this crazy, messy, exhausting jumple of a life: I am lucky.
Domestic Engineer Shirt: Hudson Lillian Designs (use code mommyinflats for 10-20% off)
Jeans: old, similar
Mama Boots: c/o Bearpaw
Girls Buckle Boots: c/o Bearpaw
Girls Clasp Boots: c/o Bearpaw
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